All posts by Greg I. Hamilton

When Words Mean Nothing but DO Something

I watched Inception last night (loved it as expected; knew it was going to be my kind of movie ever since I heard about it in October of ’09 from its director of ski photography) and hit the pillow thinking about why it had worked as a film. It’s significant that I went to sleep to ponder a movie about planting waking-life ideas in people’s dreams.

Yeah, the movie sucked me in. I gladly suspended my disbelief, rode along with the filmmakers’ playful illusions and deceits, and kept chewing on them after it was done. Suspension of disbelief is one pinnacle of moviemaking and Inception achieved it for me through visual storytelling rather than clever wordsmithing. To convey how dream travel worked, there was no narration, not much dialogue, and only enough pseudo-science and vague technique to serve as what Hitchcock called a McGuffin: a plot device that is really only in there to drive the characters nuts. Which is of course what audiences love.

An on-location toast to the filming wrap for Inception. Why has it taken me this long to see this movie?

Film so often works when it’s not about words but about the spaces between them. So why am I sixteen years deep working in film, thirty-some years a fan of moving pictures? Why of all media does it intrigue me— the writer— so much? Because it’s not about what words mean. It’s about what they do.

I woke this morning realizing that this may be my connection to the athletes in our film, The Movement. Why am I directing a film about disabled skiers? What’s my connection to five people who don’t walk through the world exactly the way I do? I think it’s because they chose to ski, when society and even their own minds told them that was ridiculous. I suppose I, too, take “that’s ridiculous” as an invitation. I’m a writer who understands that words ultimately mean nothing. And here I am still writing.

Words mean nothing? I’ll throw another writer’s meaningless words at the topic:

“I knew I should be a writer because it was something at which I would never be good enough.” — Some author, in an intro to his or her book. I think. Paraphrased here from memory. I haven’t been able to locate it again. See? Meaningless

It’s really only satisfying when the things we create see the light of day (or the glow of your monitor) and actually make something happen.

Think about all the hard work that goes into putting important things into just the right words— only to have that contract reneged upon, that screenplay mothballed, that novel pushed out of print. It’s not about what those words (or even those great huge conglomerations of words) mean, it’s about what they do while they are still alive.

Kind of like us humans, right?

Thanks for reading. Cheers,

Greg

Photos © Chris Patterson, used here with permission. Read more about Chris’ contribution to Inception in American Cinematographer, July 2010

Magpie Identity Crisis

Magpies are birds with an identity crisis. They have a lovely, timeless plumage that will always walk Paris runways with confidence, regardless of what the new black (or white or blue) is this year.

They eat roadkill.

They have this quite acceptable, relatively benign call.* It’s a sort of mezzo “squayk” that is neither the shrill screech of those millions of annoying birds nor the gravelly complaint of their grumpiest feathered friends.

They scavenge garbage.

Based on their dining habits, I would have expected something more like a vulture’s repulsive bald red head and a grackle’s screechy dry-heave call. No wonder their cartoonist, Paul Terry, did a significant make-over on the world’s two most famous magpies, Heckle and Jeckle (right). The real magpie is svelte, vogue, and articulate. Hardly a cartoon character.

Really, this is the magpie? I could picture such ditch and dumpster divers making a sound like fingernails upchucking on chalkboard. I envision them in the mismatched Technicolor feathers of a fashion disaster. I imagine an oversized head with turkey neck waggles. I picture them waddling through swamps in a flightless turd-brown hump of a body with gangly blister-red ankles and splayed feet that no manicure could cure. But, no.

Perhaps the problem here is my own (and either way it has nothing to do with “neck waggles”). I’m referring, of course, to Robert M. Pirsig’s platypus principle. Back in 1991 he challenged all those academics who got upset over the fact that an egg-laying mammal— the platypus— suddenly showed up on the scene after they’d deemed such a creature impossible. Platypus behavior was, of course, absolutely forbidden according to all the years of hard laboratory work these biologists had invested in dissecting all the other mammals they could get their scalpels on. But as Pirsig points out:

The platypus isn’t doing anything paradoxical at all. It isn’t having any problems.  Platypi have been laying eggs and suckling their young for millions of years before there were any zoologists to come along and declare it illegal. The real mystery, the real enigma, is how mature, objective, trained scientific observers can blame their own goof on a poor innocent platypus — Robert M. Pirsig, Lila

So perhaps my preconceived notions are wrong. Perhaps it’s time to reevaluate my stereotypes of what a carcass-plucker ought to look and sound like. Gosh, to look so nice, I too might be willing to slurp some roadway raspberries now and then. To sing like that, I too might gobble down a furry Frisbee or two.

Thanks for reading. Cheers,

Greg

* Can’t conjure a magpie call in your head? Here’s an excellent one-minute YouTube clip which balances suspense and payoff beautifully. This one was a bit more theatrical than the one I heard on the walk home tonight.

Roadkill photo by goingslo. Promotional image of Heckle and Jeckle used per U.S. Copyright fair use.

The Badass Buddha of Big Mountain Skiing

The yellow sign says “CLIFFS.” I watch Kristen ski down past it. She slows only momentarily and then vanishes over the edge.

To the right I spot a traverse: suitably challenging but well within my comfort zone. A voice of caution echoes in my head: “Kristen’s a badass. Who the hell do I think I am to follow her down a cliff?”

I am Buddha.

And so I go for it.

We’re at Ski to Live 2, a clinic from undisputed big mountain ski beast, Kristen Ulmer. The style of the session is Ulmer’s own creation. It has a lot of heart and a lot of fire— like a biker tattoo. As I learned a couple years ago, her cerebral explorations gain momentum from the guided skiing exercises … and vice versa.

Rewind one year to 2010. I was supposed to be at this very clinic: a triumphant return to Alta, a mountain that had never let me down. To be fair, I did make it here. But in a boot. On crutches. With a torn Achilles and soleus muscle. From just one day before. Boo hoo.

That was my first serious injury. [My dislocated thumb back in high school was laughable: I thought it funny that the ski patroller had to put his knee in my armpit and use both hands and all his strength to re-set it; a couple weekends later I cut a slit in a work-glove so I could wear my splint for the state championships; and I sucked just as much in that race as I would have without the dislocated thumb— so, not exactly a setback.]

My Achilles last year was a serious injury. I went the better part of four months without walking on two legs. If it hadn’t been for this movie I’ve been working on (about folks who haven’t let disability stop them from skiing), I probably would have been more discouraged. But here I am, a year later, following Kristen Ulmer past a yellow cliff-warning sign on the Devil’s Castle face. Before my injury it was this sort of inbounds hike-to terrain that won me over to Alta. Right now it’s giving me a funny feeling in the belly.

Atop this cliff— which is not exactly a cliff, but steeper than most runs I’ve ever skied— I’m playing with a concept Ulmer and her guides have just shared with us. Imagine two variations on fear. One is a crippling, totally unworkable panic that makes grown adults curl up into the fetal position. The other is a sort of energizing fear. It is the butterflies in your gut before you walk out on stage. It’s that headrush that makes your knees go weak (but not collapse) just before your moment of truth. It’s— well, it’s this feeling like I’m gonna puke right here and start a little vomit avalanche down this chute.

I don’t mean that in an unpleasant way. You know like when Rod Tidwell hurls on the field before his big game? Or when Rabbit gets the chunky hiccups backstage before taking on a rival rapper? That sounds kind of nice right now. Robert Redford once described skiing as a mix of danger and poetry. Standing atop this chute, experiencing this sense of workable fear, I would describe it as the intersection of danger and power. I know this fear: there is no need to overcome it— because it can be harnessed.

As I glide over the slight cornice into the chute, a river of slough ushers my turns downward. There’s something calming about my uphill knee being around chest-high after each turn while a sea of snow races past me. I like this form of fear. It’s dawning on me that I could live the rest of my life this way. I start thinking about career choices that have loomed like ominous “CLIFFS” signs. Before I know it I’m at the bottom of the chute, feeling like some sort of badass Buddha. I don’t know the Zen term for badass Buddha, but Ulmer did share this one with us: a mouthful that translated as “great stupid-ass Buddha.” It’s fun to ski like him as well.

Thanks for reading. Cheers,

Greg

Photos by yours truly and (((o.kvlt)))