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Hello Film, What would You Like to Be?

“Hello, film of mine. What would you like to be when you grow up?”

My film looks at its shoelaces. “I don’t know,” he mumbles.

I wait. I’m working on this.

“I guess I’m not sure about all this stuff you talk about: me making a difference in the world, saving a river, or whatever.”

“Oh yeah?”

“Well, yeah, kind of.” He scratches his nose.

I wait. I’m not sure if I should watch him or spare him the scrutiny. I pretend to examine my fingernails. I look up. Then I feel guilty, like I’m leering. I return my gaze to my nails, wishing I could study him without being seen.

“Actually,” he says hopefully.

This gives me a chance to make eye contact. I smile, genuinely eager to hear what he’s actually going to say.

“I think I just want to tell my story. I mean I don’t even know what my story is, you know? I think I just want to live my life. Like, you know, just go forward and see what happens.”

My smile is warming the back of my neck. “Yeah, I think I know what you mean,” I say.

He’s studying me now, as if waiting for a retort. Or maybe he’s trying to figure out what I might be scheming by not saying more. I return his look, trying not to be any sort of a schemer. He glances back to his shoelaces.

“It’s just that,” he adds, “it seems kind of limiting to think too much about what I want to do, or be, when I grow up.”

“You know,” I offer, pausing for effect before pronouncing Socrates’ name as Bill and Ted would, “Soh-crates said ‘the unexamined life is unfit to live’.” I figure an Excellent Adventure reference will assure him I’m kidding, but he turns and walks away.

He returns moments later with my blue hardbound college thesis. He thumbs, remarkably fast, to an inset quote on a page near the very end. He reads:

“It seems as if Japan differs from the rest of the major traditions of the world, all of which would accept the Socratic dictum that ‘the unexamined life is unfit to live.’ Japan might even counter by saying that it is the examined life that is unfit to live, because it is not life.”

“What blow-hard quoted that in his thesis?”

He tosses the thing at me playfully. This kid knows me.

Thanks for reading. Cheers,
greg

Photo by Matthew Whalen, DP of Power of the River

Way to Go, Bonk! Thank you, DB.

When I got snowed out of attending his memorial service, I imagine DB would have had a succinct assessment for me. Let’s imagine together what it might have been. For those who don’t know Warren Miller’s first hire Don Brolin, I’ll try to give a sense of the way he spoke. If, for instance, he had handed me a warm beer from his filing cabinet—as he so often did in our days at that office—and I had protested (which I never did), he would have said:

Warm beer is infinitely colder than no beer at all.

If my picks had somehow won the weekly football pool:

Even a broken clock is right twice a day.

If assessing that shrill woman at the focus group:

She had a voice that could shatter a beer can.

If it was too dark to film:

It’s darker than the inside of a football.

If everything was too snowy for the camera to capture any contrast:

It’s like two white mice swimming in a bowl of milk.

If a film segment ran on too painfully long:

It’s like a big guy standing on your toe.

And, of course, there was DB’s usual homage to Warren’s film narration, say when a beginner skier has somehow escaped a fall only to be hit in the head by the chairlift. Because of the frequency of these sorts of shots and quips in each film, around the office this was a daily DB utterance applicable to any circumstance:

Way to go, Bonk!

DB’s witticisms could be full of real knowledge. For instance he taught me about the real meaning of my favorite pro football team’s colors. While wagering a side bet on that week’s matchup, he asked why an Oregon kid would root for Philadelphia. I said I’d chosen the Eagles very young, based on their team colors. For me, they resembled my home state’s pallet of green trees and perennially grey skies. DB told me this was interesting, since the team colors did indeed have significance. After I failed to guess, DB shared that Philly was the site of the country’s first mint, and thus the Eagles were painted in the colors of money: green for dollars, silver-grey for coins. Pony up, nature boy, he said, and put your money where your loyalty is. I lost the bet but gained a little piece of knowledge (likely apocryphal, which only adds to its value).

I had really wanted to get over the pass and the Continental Divide last Friday to be there with DB’s wife Colleen, my old coworkers, and all the people whose lives were touched by DB. It’s tempting to list excuses about blizzards and risking the lives of people I love to drive through the night on nasty roads, but I picture DB listening to such excuses patiently, nodding, then summing all his thoughts up in something that might well begin with:

Sure as there’s an ass in a cat …

So while I continue to find the right DBism for this occasion, allow me to share a memory that still shines as brightly as his eyes that day at Kurt and Ali’s house.

It had been several years since I’d seen DB and I admit I’d feared the worst after hearing rumor of some serious medical troubles a while back. Standing in the kitchen clutching a beer, I had turned in the crowd to face someone I didn’t immediately recognize. Fit and trim enough to belie 70-some years of life, with brighter eyes than I’d ever remembered, a transformed DB stood there before me. Only his wry smirk told me this was the longtime Warren Miller Films head of production, that droll buddy to staffers of all ages.

He took my hand with an unexpectedly firm grasp and his eyes and smile radiated an enthusiastic lust for life that took me entirely by surprise. I suspect I made some comment about his hands being without a beer and must have offered to fetch one. He stopped me and went on to share the last few years of his life in something other than the snarky DBisms I would have expected.

Doc had said stop drinking or you’re dead—or something to that effect. It turns out, he told me, that he’d been sucking down something like a case of beer a day. So on his doctor’s advice along with what must have been some clear protests from his body, mind, soul, and loved ones, he quit drinking. Since then, he told me with growing verve, he’d channeled those energies and calories into bicycling.

He’d lost massive amounts of weight, built up muscle and endurance, and given his internal organs a much-needed break. Now his greatest frustration was that—closing in on his 80th birthday if I recall correctly—he was frustrated that he couldn’t quite achieve the qualifying time trial to ride on Boulder’s new velodrome.

Roughly eight decades old and here was a man showing me that it’s never too late and you’re never too old to get healthy and make the most of life. I can get feisty when people say they’re too old or it’s too late or it’s too difficult to even try. That’s because, to me, DB will always stand as a shining example that:

  1. It’s never too late to make good choices.
  2. You’re never too old to change your ways for the better.
  3. Every day is a good time to appreciate the people we love and the life we have.

Perhaps you can help me find the right DBism for the occasion (and perhaps lots of wrong ones that make us chuckle) in the comments below. In the spirit of the idioms he so aptly borrowed and reapplied throughout his life, I’ll wrap up as DB did so many times at the conference table:

That concludes my prepared remarks.

Rest in Peace, DB. Way to go, Bonk.

Greg

Photo by Flowizm via Compfight cc

This Experimental Documentary Is Strong!

Julie Wyman has crafted an elegant film on three-time Olympic weightlifter Cheryl Haworth. The University of California’s Institute for Research in the Arts calls it an “experimental documentary film,” but to me it’s just a very well honed telling of an amazing story about an extraordinary woman. That’s all. Just that.

I saw Strong! tonight here in Steamboat Springs, Colorado— one of only 100 or so community screenings that get the jump on the film’s July 26 premiere on PBS. Our small crowd filled the screening room with multiple oohs and aahs throughout the film’s 60 minutes. Volunteering to stack chairs afterward I felt inspired to see how many I could lift at once. Then a little chiropractor on my shoulder thought better of it.

Haworth at the barCheryl Haworth is a documentarian’s dream: a true character who appears to need no screenwriter’s embellishment. She comes across with warm humor and genuine determination. Her determination may not seem unusual for those who follow great athletes, but her humanity is something special. Or, as a framed inspirational quote in my office might say, “you are unique, just like everybody else.” But seriously, nowadays if we’re going to truly love a hero, they kind of need to be one of us, right?

The film depicts Cheryl as vulnerable as equally as she is a go-getter, and yet it all somehow avoids cliché (better than I can seem to manage in this review). Her story is a home run, a slam dunk, a sure thing (just to beat the dead cliché a little more). But what really fascinated me about the movie was the creative documentary techniques Julie Wyman employed.

Generally not one with qualms about revealing spoilers about forthcoming films, I’m actually loath to reveal too many of Julie’s creative storytelling mechanisms as they really made the experience for me. And besides, I’ll probably steal some of them for my own future documentaries.

Let me at least say that Julie and her team really thought this film through and invested some powerful inspiration into its telling. A very brief educational segment explained weightlifting more succinctly and appealingly than anything I’ve ever seen. The visual variety throughout the film, including what I can only describe as a love scene— or at least highly sensual foreplay— with a gold 1979 Lincoln Continental Mark V, really carries viewers eagerly through the one-hour experience.

See Strong! Playing on PBS in July and in various other lucky communities till then.

Thanks to Bud Werner Memorial Library, Community Cinema (from Rocky Mountain PBS and ITVS), and Girls To Women for hosting tonight’s show. Cheers,

Greg

Top left photo by Julie Wyman – Haworth breaks PanAmerican record at the 2005 Pan American Championships, lifting 161 kg (352 pounds)
Top right photo by Anne Etheridge – Cheryl poses for media after making the 2008 Olympic Team at the Team Trials in Atlanta
Lower photo by Paul Schilens – Haworth at the bar